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e week whizzes past SUPER fast! juz cant seem to be able to catch my breath. so much gg on. skul on one hand, emotions on the other. hate it wen i hafta find out things i don hafta know. HATE it! yes hate it. sumtimes wen curiosity gets the better of u, u juz wont care but feed the eagerness to find out, but u'll never be full. always craving for more. and dats wen u destroy the trust. things will juz get out of hand. rite now, i feel? numb. i feel? stupid. i feel? wads der to feel. den again, i don wanna be in e dark. truth hurts. juz spill it. why hide. be brave lar! if u do it say it! ergh! seriously, i dono myself. i juz don, so i'm juz gonna stop babbling of the things tt i don even noe wad im talking. see wad i mean?




haha. anyways, went down town with jannah on tues and we saw TAUFIK! yupp. he waas juz rite IN FRONT of us and being so BLUR we din go after him cuz he was wearing oversized pants and some ragged tee. definitely not how an idol wud dress. but i recognised his senget cap and those avator shades. yep. and jannah HAD to add on how kental he walked. he did. it was unsightly. but why taufik, why??? it was a good day of shopping anyhow, bought myself a roxy bag and a pair of flip flops. nice. jannah bought a roxy bag also. and i noe wad she wan for her b'day, girls...but we wont get it for her. too ex. in fact she actuali came up with the idea of "hey! why don i buy my present ferst and u all juz pay later" smart eh? haha too smart oredi. anw babe, thanks for the sharing session. it was uplifting, enlightening. thanks. and as for u. der's juz too much gg on. take ur time. anyway we are only 21 gg 22. so enjoy. :)

and my thanks hugest thanks to farena for the unanticipated chat which led to some unwanted surprises but i was glad sumhow i had sum1 i could count on to be der wen i was facing e ferst shits of 2005. it was one hell of a nite but sumhow, my weakness is my weakness. where do i draw the strength. i hope He can help me. and i also hope it's all juz a phase. yet again. time and time again. and with that this wud be my last straw. one more wrong and i noe exactly wat i'll do.

ho well.gotta get back to my books oredi. u ppl take care. go watch charmed and amazing race yo!

i love WEDNESDAYS.