about being good

sometimes i wish i'm naive and gullible.
so that i won't hafta know much about what's going on around me.
sometimes i wish i'm bestowed with no feelings
for i don't wanna get involved in the turmoil of misunderstandings

i wish i'm good
i wish i can be good
i wish i can look at someone and not have ill thoughts about him/her
when i'm good i wish i can be better
in a split second when i have evil thoughts of someone
i wish i can realise it and think of Allah
i wish i can get less angry
gosh i wish i have short term memory!!
i wish i can say the right words at the right time

but i'm only human

all in the hope of being a better person. no. being good.


but it's not about being good...
it's about how good you wanna be...

you know they say that when you're truly sincere about what you do,
it's reflected in your eyes
and shines through your face

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i wish you could look at me the way you look at her
and tell me you love me the way you love her
because i know she's better
because i know i'm not as demure as her
still i accept

boy you don't know how much you're loved
yet you cast your eyes away
from the ones who truly love you
so i let go

because in order for good to triumph over evil
is for the good to do nothing...

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truly, at this hour, no one has given me much more worries than you.
i hope you will be safe in your journey
perhaps this is the turning point
of everything

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honestly, i'm just typing away...
because i'm all mixed up

if you can read my heart
it says "No i don't mean it that way"
it says "Sorry all this had to happen"

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I hope December gives me more strength than June

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Ya Allah, ya tuhanku, Ya Allah, zat yang membolak-bailkkan hati, berikanlah ketenangan pada jiwa yang bergelora, berikanlah keihsanan pada hati yang kecamuk, berikanlah kesabaran pada amarah yang membara. Sesungguhnya kami hanya hamba mu yang lemah segala-galanya. Amin...