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wad can i say....in a matter of hours, i see my tagboard flooded by comments...i'm shocked laar...seems like it's becomin too public oredi. i guess it's these kinds of issues that make ppl talk. make ppl gossip. make ppl make mistakes. make ppl sin....humans. interesting creatures.

i guess it all started with anonymous. and i think generally, bloggers dont like it when they see anonymouses tagging. it'd be SOOO much better if anonymouses leave their names. den again, it's a free world isn't it? u can write or say watever u want without bothering wat others think. some ppl can do dat. some ppl jump to conclusions. some just cant care less. some get too curious. hence, the different facets of people. amazing.

i tried looking back at 2005, in a span of a few months, A LOT of things happened. uncountable. Many events of which were totally unexpected and uncalled for. beyond my control. meeting up with farena after the very long MIA from her. the gerl talks and secrets. the outings with my pergas gerls. my aunt's passing. my sister's O level results. latif's departure to aussie. my r'ship issues. my dad's retrenchment. my shopping trips with fidza. my splurgings...it all came pouring like as if i opened the door to the new yr and everything came falling. it's like as if they're waiting for me every single day.

dat is, when i looked back wat had happened la. dis is me...i think so deep ppl keep telling me to stop thinking so much. like i said it was beyond my control and it came all from Him up there. pre-written as farena would say. destined. fate. and NOTHING i can do about it. totally nothing. i'm serious. everyone's made different. some strong some weak. some pretty some ugly. and the personalities in each individual differ so much it makes each of us unique. every single tiny thing that happened juz came from Him. it realli is written. can we change it? mayb we can think of it as changing for the better, but again i'd say, whether we change or we dont, it's all written. whether we die befor we change or whether i die the next hour....it's FATE. dis is life...

so...wad i'm trying to say is...u ppl can say watever u wanna say abt me abt her, abt him or abt whoever. i will not do anything. even if i did, believe, that it happened for a reason. who knows wat holds in the future. who knows wad u all gonna comment abt dis entry. who knows fidza may end up with taufik batisah? well, who knows???? hhahaha.

think i rattle on too much. but i feel good. i know my frens are there for me and he still loves me. thank you all
thank Allah for this life.

hugs and kisses for my fellow bloggers.


thank you



RAI