rush hour

time was pressing on me. i had to pack like mad. baggages were too many. the heart was soooo heavy.

dated 24 dec

i was exhausted by the time we reached germany from switzerland. and we still had to pack and cook for the farewell dinner the next day. we even slept at four thirty juz to finish cookin all the dishes. my mum, me n kak faj. it was a good bonding session. but also bone breakin!

dated 25 dec

nontheless it was all worth the sleepless nite. everyone came and enjoyed the food..i had my last best laugh with my kakak.

ikmal came. we talked. and he is really lookin for a potenitial wife. throughout the day they kept giving me candidates to choose while laughing away esp pak hasbi. gembira tk terhingga. he cant wait for me to get married to an indonesian. he even said he will take 1 week off juz to attend my wedding. i only smiled. because i felt it was all too serious for me. suddenly, r'ship issues became a stress for me. it dawned on me who IS the ideal guy. it all juz got too serious n scary. i wasnt prepared.

dated 26 dec

parting is always hard to do, esp when u've learned to live n adapt in a homey environment, when u haf found the family who has been there for u. the mind wants to go back home, but the heart was not prepared. so, as expected, the airport was flooded with tears again. my exhaustion was totally takin the toll on me wat with the lack of sleep n constant tearing. i think i left in haste. but i know we will meet again...one day.

dated 27 dec

touched down and swarmed with ppl. shock shock. heavy heavy rain. ching chong melayu. itulah singapuraku. met fidz and was i glad! thank u girl!

still very tired. gg out soon to catch up n settle scores with the boy. i may juz snap n break at e rate im gg. wish me luck.

bis dann!

i miss germany. and aceh too