rai melalak lagi

imagine.

i came here on a cold summer friday...carrying a 35 kg luggage dragging it from one end to e other without ANY help from jackass and i tried to settle down, here at europahaus. give me one week. i will try to fit in. yes i thank pak hasbi whom i met e very ferst day. he gave me e feeling of home. it was more complete wen my parents and sisters came down. suddenly IA turned out like any other family travelling days...

i managed to sleep beside my mum, hear my dad snores and shared the same blanket with Pi. e cold room turned warm, reali...i had my shopping trips with Pi. hear her endless stories and she had to put up with my short temper (cuz i was tired of gg round n round the same place). for those of u who hadnt known, im not that close with fathin cuz she's been too pampered and im e onli one who doesnt pamper her much...*rite* BUT! we had boiled eggs for supper one nite n from den i knew i am gg to miss her...

it wasnt easy. i battled with my tears at the airport but i couldnt hide them any longer when fathin gave me a tight hug. a long tight hug...and den mum joined. Pi as well. e pinnacle of it all had to be dad...who kissed me and gave his ever comforting beary hug. and he cried......

how can i not cry seeing him cry....**totally heartbreaking**

it was all too fast... but i hope time flies as fast too wen im all alone here.

no, wrong. i found my new family, thank god for them. pak hasbi's family, pak hadi's, pak jo's and mas tikno who willingly came to the airport to send my family off. i thank god for them. i thank them for being such wonderful hosts. they made my mum cry for their hospitality and i believe, they are angels i never tot would help me thru my darkest times here in germany.

so let me cry now. again. as i re-adapt myself without the support of my family. let me stand on my own for i know time will not wait for me...

let me cry to sleep now so i can c tmr and e day after tmr and d next so i can c all of u again, insya-allah....

nite u all...
morning la...
i end with some pics..