juz me and ma tots

sometimes...
don u wonder why u live?
don u ponder why u die?
wel, i do.

somehow, life is juz a transition
a platform to put our strength to test
a stage to watch actors strut their play

as i sat down with everyone yesterday at my late aunt's, reciting the prayers, i cant help but feel afraid. sad too. somehow i could feel her presence. eerie, but true. felt she was watching.

but the prayers were loud yet calm. something that can prick ur soul. makes u dizzy yet think of all the things u do. makes u reflect. makes u repent.



but for how long?




how long can a human, so weak, with all e negative influences, the overwhelming sins, how long...can we stay strong...........only god knows






think i need to indulge in more soul searching of pure devotion of high discipline.





then....
will i probably u'stand the true meaning of repent.




god help me.....